“So, is he sleeping through the night yet?”
*sigh*
With my daughter I would cringe inside whenever someone
asked me that question because my response for over 2 years of her life was
always the same: “no”. My Goober was a
horrid sleeper. Absolutely. Horrid.
When she was still very much a baby she would wake every 2-3 hours all
night to eat. I was very adamant about
breast feeding her myself and not sending the Weatherman in with a bottle
because I didn’t want her to reject the breast and I didn’t want to jeopardize
my milk supply. When she started on
whole milk after the age of 1 and I began decreasing my pumping at work, then I
would send him in with a sippy of warm milk once a night, but it wasn’t until
this past Christmas that she actually started sleeping through the night. Needless
to say, I was a zombie, but I eventually did get used to the frequent night
wakings (only to have a few months of sleep before I became too big and prego and
uncomfortable and was up peeing every hour or two).
We tried everything to get her to sleep: not letting her
fall asleep at the breast, laying her down awake, setting a bedtime routine and
keeping her on a schedule, playing music and white noise, not playing music and
white noise, using a humidifier and not using a humidifier, leaving lights on
and having total darkness. I read every
sleep-aid book and scoured every website I came across for a little inkling of
why she wouldn’t sleep. I could not
allow her to cry it out. I have heard
wonderful things about it, but that is just not for me and my family. Maybe her sleep would have been better if I
had let her scream until she exhausted herself and comforted herself, but every
instinct in my mommy body told me not to, and I have learned to listen to those
instincts.
I eventually learned to live with it. I had read somewhere that children who woke
up a lot at night often turned out to be gifted, and that the frequent night
wakings were because their brain was just too active to rest, so I would tell
myself this to help me get through another sleep-exhausted day. I held onto the hope that sleep would come
eventually.
And you know what? It
did. She sleeps very soundly now and
despite waking up every now and then due to night terrors, she does great!
Coming through the experience of a poor sleeper and seeing
the other side has given me perspective.
So when Frog Face started sleeping for 4-6 hour stretches at only a
couple weeks old, I flipped! I didn’t
know what to do with a child that actually slept well! Should I wake him to feed him? Should I let him sleep? Will this affect my still-being-established
milk supply? I did opt for the “let him
sleep” method and was grateful for the extra shut eye.
However, that didn’t last long.
Frog Face started having sleep issues about the same time we
discovered his dairy allergy. He had
terrible gas that would cause him to fuss and wake himself up a lot at
night. He would eventually burp or fart
after we bounced him a bit and then go back to sleep. He also spits up an insane amount of
milk. I would be worried about the
amount of milk he spits up if he wasn’t so obviously a chunky monkey (17lbs, in
6-9 month clothing, and not even 4 months old yet!). But the digestive upset caused for sleep
upset too, despite gas drops and gripe water.
Then when I started going back to work the sleep issue
seemed to get even worse. However, I
can’t blame the little guy for waking up more to be with mommy because he is
apart from me all day. So without
meaning to we have begun to change our sleep habits and become something I
never thought we would become: a cosleeping family.
Frog Face starts off in his crib in his own room (he outgrew
the pack-n-play next to our bed weeks ago) and will sleep in there for a
bit. However, after waking up every
30-60 minutes, he eventually finds his way into our bed snuggled up next to
me. I have such mixed feelings about
this! There is nothing wrong with
cosleeping, but I never viewed us as a cosleeping family either. With Goober, we NEVER let her fall asleep
with us because we wanted her to sleep in her own space and we were worried
about blankets, overheating, rolling over on her, SIDS, etc. Even when she was sick or we were traveling
and I WANTED her to sleep with us, she wouldn't. I also was not very good at nursing lying
down. I think that is where things
started to change this time around: I learned how to feed Frog Face without
having to get out of bed, or even having to wake up much. So after going in to his room to give him his
pacifier or feed him for the umpteenth time, I eventually tell the Weatherman
to bring him in with me and we all sleep so much better. In fact, some of my favorite moments with
Frog Face are watching him sleep as he is contentedly snuggled up next to
me.
However, I still hate the question, no matter how
well-meaning, of whether my almost-4-month-old son is sleeping well. When did the sleeping habits of our infants
become a symbol of baby temperament, development, and overall parenting
skills? Just because my child is not
sleeping through the night by 6 weeks old doesn't mean I am a bad mother or
that I am doing something wrong. Some
kids really are just poor sleepers.
Also, breast fed babies usually wake up to eat more than formula fed
babies since breast milk travels through the digestive track faster, meaning
they get hungrier more often.
So there you have it: my son sleeps in bed with us. We will continue to lay him down for naps in
his crib and start him off in there at night so he is familiar with it, but for
now, this is a battle we are not ready to fight. Sleep is more important for us and he is too
young for us to start sleep training more strictly (although I still won’t do
CIO even when he is older). And
honestly? I like the snuggles. Goober is turning three this weekend and it
reminds me of just how fast the time does fly and that before I know it they
will both be teenagers and won’t want to have anything to do with me. So for now, while he still thinks I am the
center of his world, I am going to soak it up, even at night.
Not the most flattering picture of me, but Frog Face sure looks awfully cute! |
This is a picture of Goober when she was about the same age as Frog Face is now |
Apparently this was a favorite sleep position for her! |
Goober sleeping in her big girl bed. She is a pretty good sleeper now! |
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